and funny how now when things have been blown up, she runs away and hides behind - who else? that cheating pig of a so-called boyfriend she loves so dearly.

so right now ... since i really can't be fucked anymore, since it's the lunar new year soon, since my father came home to us safe and sound (so grateful for this), my last words to A. will be — do whatever the hell you want. continue living in denial about your so-called boyfriend. feelings of anger aside, i really do hope that soon, you'll learn to be stronger and love yourself a little better, because our parents brought us into this world to be happy and not to be broken nor manipulated by scumbags like the one you still want to call a boyfriend. otherwise, you'll forever be trapped in this vicious cycle of cheating, breaking up, crying, then forgiving him and taking him back, and then letting him walk all over you again. have some self-worth honey. unless the air he exhales when he breathes manifests into money and makeup products and life essentials, someone like him - of that calibre, especially - is pretty much replaceable.

and to the guy who came begging my sister for another shot a things after he got found out, to the guy who cannot be honest with himself and with all the girls (including A.) he emotionally duped, to the guy who only knows how to lie and cheat just to make himself seem better than the rest — i really hope you grow up soon.

i don't really care about what else others have to say on this matter anymore, and i won't apologise nor take down any blog entries because i don't feel that i've done anything wrong. i'm penning my thoughts and feelings down as a sister, as a daughter, as someone who has to protect her own family and loved ones from such nastiness. many of you may disagree and feel that i've taken things a little too far because she's already made her online presence scarce, but i have to take a stand here and say that you can delete your blogs and so on, but the truth of the matter is that you've already made a personal insult/attack towards my family, who in this case are INNOCENT. besides, what gives her the damned rights to say such worldly things? you will notice that i've never once involved her family/upbringing in this matter, because she is who she is as an individual. i'm firm in my beliefs that everyone has parents that have all raised us well, but who we are as people and the habits/thoughts/ways of life we decided to adopt and cultivate for ourselves are matters entirely separate from our parents' teachings. i see no need to bring up unnecessary issues such as her family values and upbringing and so on when it is her and her alone who has did something unpleasant.

frankly, i don't blame her for being the way she is, because it's that scumbag's fault for being so manipulative and dishonest that she's become so broken inside and so cynical. but at the same time she's all "I don't need advice from you" to my sister ... clearly she's the kind of person who only wants to hear what she wants to hear yeah? so much for being kind to her and trying to help her see the truth.

so, if A. is so happy with her life this way, she's free to go on ahead with it. and if that scumbag is happy cheating and duping other people and manipulating their emotions, he can continue as well, because he will get what he duly deserves someday. and i'm sure of it.

shall stop here for now, x