Date : Wednesday 7 March 2018
Time : 16:44
Title : An open letter to ...

7 March 2018.

it's been a whole year since my mother's passing. i can't believe how much time has flown. i just got back from seeing my mother - and my dear grandfather - at their final resting place and i feel that i have some things i want to get off my chest. it's gonna be one heck of a lengthy post i presume, but i don't really care because 1) i doubt anyone actually reads this space haha and 2) i just need to get it all down here. so here goes ...

i'm sure a number of you have already known by now about the recent, not-so-courteous remark made by an anonymous being hiding behind a fake name (possibly) and a fake profile (definitely). well, this harassment has actually been going on for over a year now. it was actually targeted at my best friend, but for some strange reason i've had to face it too. not that anything actually gets to me much, i'll be frank, because first off whatever happened that sparked all this drama in the first place is so ... passé. like literally it happened over a year ago and i'm not too sure why some people find joy in thinking they're oh-so-great by creating fake social media profiles, hiding behind made-up names/impersonating other people, and going around spreading hate messages and thinking they're bloody invincible just because "no one can find out who they are because they've assumed a fake identity". i hate to be the one to break it to you, but honey, maybe no one knows now, but God is always watching - whether you believe in religion or not. and karma is so, so real.


there's a natural law of karma that vindictive people, who go out of their way to hurt others, will end up broke and alone. and i like how after having one fake profile reported and taken down for spam, another one immediately springs up. it's almost as if these people - or this person, i suspect - won't know when it's time to call it quits - but can we hardly blame them? 😂

also i find it EXTREMELY laughable how these people keep hiding behind empty profiles with fake names and fake photos can just target people and go "Block me on facebook ah? Scared ah?" when they're the ones who are too cowardly to show their REAL faces and REAL names and instead have to resort to trying to bring people down while hiding their identities lololol. it's also extremely funny because numerous times i've suggested meeting face-to-face to resolve this one-sided animosity once and for all yet all i get is shit like "I will meet you when I feel like it" "Why should I waste my time meeting you?" 😂 make no mistake, THESE very same people are the ones calling others cowardly. it's so ridiculous to the point of being pathetic.

with regards to the latest "attack" that brought my mother very unceremoniously into the picture, i'd like to extend my sincerest gratitude to all who showed concern and took action; y'all know who you are. but i swear, i'm SUPER unbothered; here's a little anecdote for everyone - when i was still interning at this large japanese firm during my polytechnic days and we had to go to the main office, i laughed at one of my mates back then because he kept getting hit by the turnstiles in the building that we were still taking time getting used to. right after lunch as we were going back to the office, everyone passed through the turnstiles smoothly except me and i got hit exactly where he got hit in the morning. after that all i could do was laugh awkwardly along with everyone else LOL. coincidence? maybe. but it affirms my belief that karma is real. it may not hit you immediately (no pun intended here) like what happened to me, but when it does, you'll feel so stupidly embarrassed and ashamed that you even did whatever you did at all.

i may not be perfect, i'm flawed - just like everybody else. but i do know that ultimately i am and will be infinitely better than such people like them because no matter what, i have enough respect for others to never, ever bring in family members like that into an argument - more so the deceased, because i do have dignity. one thing about them tables is that they ALWAYS turn. and at the end of the day, when such people are bereft and sad and alone, they'll know what got to them - because their hearts are just so full of hatred and wickedness that they cannot let bygones be bygones and just live and let live. instead, they sit behind their computer/phone screens and waste their lives away stalking my profile, my best friend's profile, creating fake profiles to try and get to us, trying to keep up with what's happening in our lives - when actually, all that time can be used to try and better their own lives and stop being so hateful. but well, some people just don't have an ounce of intellect, do they?

in light of today being exactly one year since my mother's passing, i'd like to say thank you to all who have been with me through the good and the bad. i'd like to say i'm sorry for hurting those i hurt when i was hurting, but thank you again for not leaving my side. i'd also like to say that if there's one thing my mother taught me, it's to always be understanding and mindful of those who are less fortunate than i am, so much that they turn into such bitter beings because the world made them so. 😊 so yes, i'm totally fine, because i believe such people will get what's coming to them sooner or later. and by then what i will do is pour myself a nice, chilled glass of cabernet sauvignon and smile. because i do have other things in life to be bothered about, other truly important matters that deserve my attention instead of such hateful beings that obviously don't know any better.

TL;DR people who create their own drama deserve their own karma.

i may not be the best person there is, but i will keep trying to be. because i know my sister and i were brought up well. ^__^

7 March 2018.
mom, i hope wherever you are, you know that i love you always and that i miss you still. ❤️