a short bout of twitter drama drove me to writing this blog entry so if you're easily offended or if you're the perpetrator of that twitter drama i'm gonna be talking about today, i suggest you navigate out of my blog now.

before i go on i just wanna say that none of 'em salty beings out there get to me. i never do let anyone get to me much. i'm not bothered by that human who was too bored out of her mind she had to go and try to start something to get retweets on twitter lel. what i am bothered about is the way society still thinks (unnecessary) slut-shaming is acceptable, even today.

yeah, i'm open-minded. i'm outspoken. i'm unafraid to speak my mind on most things and i know i'm a very opinionated being. i dare to be different and most importantly i dare to be myself. i know i'm not exactly good-looking and i know my personality can be a bit too much for many humans to handle. but apart from my down days, apart from the times when i actually do get insecure and sad, i pretty much love myself and i love my life and i love the people around me. so why did that human who tried to start something on twitter with me think it was perfectly acceptable to try and put me down when i'm being comfortable in my own skin? =.=

this is something that really bothers me. don't misunderstand, the perpetrator of this drama has got nothing on me (i know who she is, i know things about her, but why should i stoop to her level aye?) but i'm here blogging about it still because i just don't understand why such humans still exist. why do people think it's okay to try to shame someone unnecessarily just because they're so desperate for some social media fame, for that extra number of retweets/likes? furthermore, the entire thing started just because she misunderstood a tweet i wrote. how is that my fault lol?

and nobody can ever say i don't make sense, right? i mean, think about it really! doing anything - anything at all - with someone you love vs. with someone you don't feel any particular feelings for, which feels better? which feels more surreal, has more impact on you and your heart and life? which feeling would you prefer? no matter what, even if it's something as simple as talking or going out to dinner or hanging out, nothing beats the feeling of being with someone you actually love. like how i used to hang out with various guys and had plenty of guy friends, but none of them actually captured my heart the way my current boyfriend did. think about it, and tell me that tweet doesn't make sense. if i'm wrong, tell me, but i'm very sure all of you out there understand what i'm driving at. nothing really beats the feeling of being with the one you really love (except maybe college acceptance, a good GPA, a pay raise, a job acceptance ... i guess).

besides, if someone chooses to be open about their sexuality, so be it. and if they choose to be a closed book, so be it. i don't see why anyone should be shamed/put down for their own beliefs and their way of life. if they're open they're open and if they're not, so what? i have my own beliefs and you have yours. everyone has their own set of moral codes and beliefs they abide to in their lives, and while you may disagree with certain things, remember that you're not all perfect yourself. everyone has an untold story, everyone has a reason or two as to why they're this way. even if the reason is as simple as they WANT to be and they CHOSE to be and they love themselves, so be it! respect is always the ultimate key here in such matters, and it appalls me that so many people out there still can't comprehend this. just for a few measly extra likes/retweets, people would actually go so far as to slam on someone publicly, in this technological day and age, where everything can be easily accessed to everyone just with a few clicks/taps? don't even get me started on those who won't even think twice about body-shaming certain humans just because they're a little smaller/bigger in size than the 'average human being' lol.

i'm open about my sexuality but at the same time i keep it cool, y'know? people will ever only see the side of me i choose to show. certain things still have to be kept private, yes, but if i'm open-minded and comfortable with discussing certain things such as sex and politics and religion and all, so fucking be it. the same applies to anyone out there, too. if someone is okay with it then is it even necessary to try to bring them down, when they're trying to love themselves by being themselves? heck, i have friends who are a little more on the conservative side and then i also have those who fall on the opposite end of the spectrum. idgaf about that. i respect them and i love them all the same. if they want to wait till marriage to have sex then okay. if they've already had sex with several humans, then okay. it's the fucking 21st century, we're all allowed to be as open as we want or as closed as we want. and we all should just fucking respect each other no matter what.

enough with the gender roles and all the double standards. we're all human, we all have a right to who we are. we all deserve at least a tiny bit of respect. all my friends respect themselves enough to know what they're doing, and i respect their beliefs as well. i'm very sure all of you out there are the same as well. we may dislike certain humans and we may disagree with certain issues, but why can't we just show each other a minimal amount of respect?

likewise, i fucking hate my ex, but we're classmates this semester (yeah what fucking rotten luck) and i just steer clear of his path. i hate him, but i'll just stay out of his way and i'm sure he'll do the same (even though his behavior really irks me to no end but i have my friends in class and the day's work to keep me occupied).

i understand that no matter how open-minded a society can get, there'll always be conservative beings around. well that's fine by me, i respect that, but you don't simply go around forcing your beliefs onto someone. it's irritating, it's loathsome, and it just shows that you're insecure and you're uncomfortable with yourself and you need some form of verification from others so you try to lead them into agreeing with you so you feel a bit better about yourself. LOL. life doesn't work this way, alright? y'all wanted social/gender equality, yet behave otherwise? tsk.

there's NOTHING WRONG with liking myself, liking sex, liking to drink and party. that doesn't mean i ain't getting my diploma.

i'm out, xoxo