right now a lot of things, a lot of humans, a lot of spoken/written words just plain disgust the fuck out of me.

three days back we had a very sad day in music because of the death of christina grimmie. i'm not a fan, i don't really listen to her or anything, but i know and i recognise her beauty and her talent and her love of life. the way she died really, really disgusts me. why the murderer decided to do this is beyond me. like who the hell died and made him king? who said it was okay for him to go around deciding who should live and who should die? he's not God, we're not God. we shouldn't be doing this. i can only imagine the grief brought upon the grimmie family now, and especially on her brother marcus, who was present when it all unfolded before him.

i wonder how many more innocent lives have to be lost. america should do something about her gun laws, and of course humans in general should at the same time learn to love and accept one another. to christina grimmie's fans, she was probably a favorite singer, a role model, an idol, someone they looked up to. to many others, she was a daughter, a girlfriend, a sister, a buddy, a friend, an angel. she was just doing what she loved best and she was unjustly taken away from this world.


two days back, we had 50 innocent humans killed in a pure hate crime in orlando. this is depressing and heartbreaking, for they all died because a deranged man decided that he hated the LGBT community, so he went to a nightclub where most of them frequented and decided to gun down anyone that stood before him.

i'm disgusted and appalled. i'm also quite upset that this had to happen. this has shaken the world and it's left quite an impact on several of my friends/people i know/some mutual friends, who mostly happen to be part of the LGBT community. i don't understand why people think it's okay to hate on things they don't understand. the word homophobia should be abolished or have its meaning changed, or something. because it's not non-LGBTians being scared of LGBTians anymore, it's LGBTians that fear the non-LGBTians.

and why shouldn't they be afraid of non-LGBTians? some non-LGBTians go around with that mindset of superiority thinking LGBTians don't deserve to live and/or deserve anything good in life. i don't get it. why can't we all just love whoever we want to love? does someone's sexual orientation define who they are as a person? i mean yeah (for example) she likes both men and women and he likes men only. so fucking what? this woman could save your life in the ER or this man could help you win a lawsuit. do their sexual orientations still matter in these situations now???

i may be a misanthrope but i do actually have friends - friends who make up the LGBT community in this world - and i love them. i love talking to them, i love going out to eat or smoke or drink with them, i love their company and most of all i love their open-mindedness. i love their honesty and i love that i can speak pretty much freely with them whenever we do hang out. that's not to say my friends who are non-LGBTians aren't great company/great friends, heavens no. they are just as fun and just as lovable as my LGBT friends. do you see what i'm driving at here? asexual, pansexual, homosexual, heterosexual ... does it really matter? are we really THAT different? i mean, we're all humans, we're all a little screwed up inside in our own ways, we all carry heartaches and triumphs with us. is sexual orientation really gonna be the thing that divides us as a race, the human race?

apart from sexual orientation there's this thing going on about religion. once again, just because sources identified that perverted shooter as muslim, we have close-minded beings using this as an opportunity to spread religious hate all over the world. might i remind all of you that the shootings happened during the holy month of ramadan, and whoever can do this is definitely not muslim at heart. we should really take it upon ourselves to stop the bigotry and the ignorance. as syndra from popular MMORPG league of legends says, "people fear what they cannot understand."

instead of hating on someone/something unnecessarily or making mindless remarks that could actually be hurtful to the receiving end of those remarks, why not take the time to try to understand them/it? for instance, instead of just classifying all asians as "good in math and kung-fu", why doesn't anyone try to understand or bother to find out that there's more to asians than just those two? (for the record, i'm asian and i've never passed a single math exam ever since i was sent to school LOL. my boyfriend's asian too and he holds a poom belt in taekwondo) on sexual orientation, instead of dismissing someone trying to come out of the closet with words like "it's just a phase" "you'll get over it", why not just give them your support and still be their friend? it's extremely difficult to finally want to come out of the closet and be free and expressive with their love and their choices. the least we can do is support them, support one another.


look at my social media platforms. whenever i feel like it i can just dedicate something to my boyfriend or posts photos of us and write him cute stuff. that's a privilege we heterosexuals hold that the LGBTians don't really have. (i am deeply apologetic for the way that sentence came out but i have no idea how else to write it, no hate though.) don't you think the LGBTians want to be able to do what i do all the time AND not get fucking judged/laughed at/threatened for it? don't these people who hate on the LGBT community so much not understand how the LGBTians feel? whatever the sexual orientation, aren't we all human and don't we all have feelings?

i'm very disappointed to see a lot of drama on my facebook because of some anti-LGBT singaporeans. don't get me wrong. it's okay to believe that love should be between a man and a woman. it's also okay to believe that love should be free. what's not okay is to hate and be intolerant of someone who just has views different from yours. it's worse if you go as far as to even say things like "i would kill you if i could" just because they think different, feel different, and are different. nobody should be scared to be who they are. i mean for these haters, they've not been scared all their life to be assholes, right?